The Opposite Of Faith Is Not Doubt, But Certainty

Sixteen-year-old Josie believed in thirty-year-old Josie. She really did. She used to jog around her dad's neighborhood, headphones in, balancing the portable Sony cd player in both hands, and dream about all the ways she would be different from me.

She had high hopes that her first draft would get written, sold and scripted by thirty. That's how the magical mystery world of publishing works right?!

I used to be able to name Faith.

Faith was my Future.

"The time will pass anyway." - Unknown

Here's the thing about faith in the far off. If the Josie of today doesn't do the work for the Josie of tomorrow, she will never come to fruition. I am almost (one week away almost) 36 years old, and I JUST had this revelation.

I have dreamt about my successful future self for as long as I can remember. What wonderful lives I've crafted for my sisters, my parents, my best friends, for me!

If this year and the year before has forced me to look at anything, it's the mirror. I have been put in the hospital working hard to make others dreams become realities, but what have I really done to move towards the steps of my dreams? Can I even name those dreams anymore?

Can you?

This morning, with my birthday just around the corner, I make this promise to my much younger, more lighthearted, more faithful self - I promise to spend the rest of my time here on Earth having more faith, and not in my future. In today.

Cheers for the gift of the moment, the work we'll put in to make it worthwhile. Let's make this day the only way forward to the life we've always wanted to live.